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so, it's my brother's birthday today, it's not so hard now because I can see him whenever I'm in queensland because Mari isn't so much of a bitch anymore and loves me now,
so,
Happy birthday, Marley<3 everytime I see you, you grow so much, and now we're finally bonding over something. I miss you all the time, but that just makes the days I get to spend playing lego with you, or talking about video games so much more exciting. xD

it's been two years since uncle Bill died, and I miss him so fucking much it's not funny.
I complain about this all the time, but it really does hurt having to deal with so much in such a little time.
I'm supposed to be happy about my brother's birthday, but I'm more upset about Natalie and Bill dying so close together,
Bill, I hope you're having a kick ass time up there, even though you're gone, I know you're still looking after me,
you know how much I love you,
and I know you'd slap me around for saying this, but you WERE a better father to me than mum's ex was.

and now,
mum's dad has died.
usually I'd be all cut up and stuff over a death, especially if I'm related to them,
but the only sadness and frustration I have is because mum is crying a lot, and because I feel like a heartless bitch.

there's a reason for it though,
he did some really fucked up shit, and didn't admit that it was the wrong thing to do.
even when I was younger, I knew there was something about him I shouldn't trust,
and only recently I learned why I felt so uncomfortable and unsure about going to the toilet at his house.

I'm putting my feelings aside to comfort my mum.
and that's making me feel at least a little better,
but I still feel a little bad about not caring about him at all.
Current Mood:
confused confused
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my health is going down again. :/
in three weeks I've lost six kilos and I don't think that's meant to be possible.
I feel REALLY fucking sick, but that might just be because I'm hungry,

I haven't eaten real food in ages (meaning I've been living on take away, lollies, party food, and alcohol)

I'm in heaps of pain,
my hips, my arm, my knee, my ankle, all of them at the same time.

I haven't been getting much sleep, but when I do sleep, I could have easily slept for days without waking up for food.

I'm hoping I get better before school because I don't want this year to be as fucked as last year was. >_____<


Current Mood:
drained drained
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AT MY HOUSE.

I INTEND ON WEARING MY ROO JAMMIES...
IF YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT, MY JAMMIES LOOK LIKE THIS: http://www.cushzilla.com/shop/img/productimages/b/childrens-cushi-kangaroo-onesie-01.jpg
BUT BIG ENOUGH TO FIT ME... AND PINK :D

AND SALLY IS COMING OVER AND I MIGHT MAKE HER WEAR HER DOOLY JAMMIES... THEY LOOK LIKE MINE BUT INSTEAD OF A KANGAROO, IT'S DOOLY ! 8D

I'M KIND OF EXCITED.

YUP.


Current Mood:
crazy crazy
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Misti is amazing.

she let me borrow her folder thingie of magical things containing Dir En Grey Blitz 5Days

and I'm making everyone watch it right as I'm typing this.

Kyo is crazy and I love it.

mum thinks Toshiya is hot. FUCK YEAH, CONSIDER YOURSELF CONVERTED, BITCH.
I'm sorry for calling you a bitch, mum. xD

Dir En Grey are kick ass.

Current Location:
HOME
Current Mood:
flirty fangirly
Current Music:
Aoi Tsuki (live) - Dir En Grey
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and because I'm lazy, I'm just going to copy and paste my facebook status' here. :/

IT'D BE GREAT IF I KNEW WHAT TIME MY FLIGHT WAS

okkkaaayyyyy 4:30, I have to walk around to find the Tiger place because Tiger is weird and for some reason gets shunned by the rest of the airport which means it must be in a completely different place to everything else... and... yes. I'm going to get lost and miss my flight. :/


facebook, you're gay. tiger airways, you're gay too. *hatehatehate*

ioehtgiofehdiotgffdhgiolerhiofhgviorhdfethnosdrfgvioroetgohjntgrlfdhtodilfv *anger*

after a great holiday, of course I have to get stressed out on the last day. the world is just like "awww... I'm sorry... we'll make you life amazing... JUST JOKING, WE'RE JUST TRYING TO MAKE YOU WANT TO KILL SOMETHING. HAHA. ENJOY YOUR FAIL, MOTHERFUCKER. I HOPE YOU FALL OVER AND BREAK YOUR ARM." =.="

and now the worlds all "oh, you want to know the name of the airport ? too bad your aunty is in the shower so you can ask. HAHA, SUCK IT, LOSER."


elthgioerhtgihrdioghviodfhtgoirdyhiohdfiotghiotrdhjgfikhbfdicjhiofdgb.
I hate this. I just want to go home.
or at least have someone to take me to the airport and make sure I get checked in and depart okay.
I've flown alone many times before, but I have always had someone with me until I depart.

this time, it's like "oh, hey Emi, thanks for coming and letting us drain you of your creativity and self confidence ! we're just going to shove you onto a bus and hope everything goes well, okay ? okay. HAVE FUN TRYING TO FIND THE RIGHT PLACE. AHAHA."

so now I've gone from "orihgiofxhdgiohdofhrdo the kids aren't behaving, I don't want to go."

to "WOOHOOO, SHINEE."

to "woooohhooooo doing band stuff"

to "...oh, everyone is at work and Jordan is on the computer... wtf do I do now ? WATCH SPONGEBOBBBBBBB !"

to "holey shit I'm in a mansion thing, but it's gross and smells like a cat's ass."

to "I just want to have a shower and get dressed. I've been wearing the same clothes and underwear for about four days now."

to "FUCK YEAH SUN AND SWIMMING AND STUFF"

to "...oh, Natalie's dead... fuck."

to "NO, EMI. I AM YOUR BRAIN. WHICH MEANS I HAVE CONTROL OVER EVERYTHING. WHICH MEANS YOU CANNOT SLEEP... EVER... YOU SUCK."

to "oh thank god for Aunty Toni."

to all my facebook status' I put up the top of this post *points*


orhgfdviehrtogfuygv rhfuhkcjeifcgvhrngjkujghbv kjfxchgkurdhfiugrgfdighurgfdgfdvfhufihugf

this sucks donkey balls so bad. :/

Current Mood:
angry angry
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I'm getting signed with Old School Management... which is awesome, but I'm getting signed as a solo artist... DNW. but apparently I can start a band from there and that it's only to protect my creativity because I found out someone has been stealing my stuff. :/

it's been two years since Natalie died

my best friend's boyfriend ruins everything Jess and I plan.

Luke isn't coming to Melbourne, yet he goes and asks if there's anything on in Sydney around the same time he was meant to come to Melbourne,

mum is crumbling without me,
but she also said she was going to see if she would have enough money to buy me six sets of coloured contact lenses O____o

I saw my brother I never get to see yesterday
he said he wants me to bring my laptop next time because he wants to learn more about a music editing thing I told him about,
(he's only 11 years old, and has aspergers, and only likes to play computer games, so it meant a lot to me that he wanted to bond with me over something musical)

PYGT is still slightly popular, which is great because I thought we had lost every single one of our readers

conversations with my Aunty Toni are amazing as always... she's god, I swear.

I feel bad for keeping something from someone I became close to. >_____< I'm hoping she will understand when I tell her though. :/

Misti gave me news shoes and they're sexy. xD

I had to yell at my cousins earlier because they were bashing each other up and I didn't like seeing the younger one get so hurt

I met uncle Brian's new girlfriend... she is amazing. like, one of the nicest people I have ever met... I don't think she has any kids, which is ridiculous because she'd make an amazing mother...
(I was in hysterics about Natalie, and she woke up to me crying and came up comforted me until I passed out)

I miss my family so god damn much, even though I'm with them right now. oiefhsiohgoirfvhdoiughoifdg

school starts again in a few weeks and I still haven't been able to get this portfolio of all my writing and shit done.

it's my brothers birthday next week, and Jina's birthday a few weeks after and I have no money to get them anything :/

and this post is ending because it's gotten rather pointless now.
Current Mood:
busy busy
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http://community.livejournal.com/anneyonsaderp/3943.html

there. chapter four of Pyongyang. xD
you better love it... or comment it or something... idk... whatever
it took a lot of effort to write this and post it >______<

GO GO GO 8D
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hey guess what guys ?

MISTI AND I STARTED WRITING AGAIN WOOOH.
right now I'm editing and finishing chapter four... even if we don't get any comments, I am determined to get this story finished so I can start a new project with my darling twin♥

in other news:
I made a sammich. it tastes awesome.

Current Mood:
busy busy
Current Music:
Tokyo - Tomandandy
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Who was your favorite childhood superhero, and why?

 wonder woman
because she was kick ass. xD

I used to have a Wonder Woman costume, and I tried flying off of the steps in my house, but I ended up face planting. >____>
Current Mood:
awake awake
Current Music:
SaGa - Dj Sisen
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HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT.

so you know how I was all emo and shit because I thought I couldn't go to see SHINee ?
WELL I FUCKING WENT TO SYDNEY ANYWAYS AND GOT TO SEE THEM. YEAH, THAT'S RIGHT.
I WAS METERS AWAY FROM GODS.
OWIRDHJIORHGOHFIOGHSOIYRS.

anyways, I got dropped off at the airport and then bummed around a little until I had to board the plane... I was sitting next to this cute gay couple who were amazed by my Miyavi drawing I was fixing xD
I  was listening to The GazettE and Dir En Grey the whole time and as I was singing along to Mitsu no Tsuba/Mitsu to Tsuba, the Asian lady behind me told me to stop because I was singing innapropriate (sp ?) things. AWKS.

I arrived at the airport, perved on a cutie as I was waiting at the bag claim, and then waited for Misti, Nina (Sunnie changed her name the other day) and Tory for a fucking hour.

I saw some guy that no shit looked like a pirate. it was epic.

and thennnn I started talking to some guy because we were both waiting for people on the same flight xD

and then they finally arrived and we all spazzed because We Converse was finally all together... woooh.

AND THEN HE THREW IT ON THE GROUUUUNNNDD !
only they would understand that. xD *points up*

we took the lift down to the train station underneath the airport PLANE TRAINNNNNNSSSS
*cough*

then we spent $15 each on a fucking train ticket =.="

and then we got lost once we arrived at our train station, and then we had to walk ages with all of our bags to our shitty hotel :)

the next day we did stuff and got ready for the concert, and as we were doing that WE TOTALLY SAW SHINee'S BUS GO PAST HOLY FUCKING SHET.

and then we lined up to claim Misti's tickets that she won, and then we found out that we could donate to UNICEF and get a ticket and a poster as a gift... which annoyed me because Sally could have come with us :/

then we went back to the hotel, made shirts and stuff (Nina ((Sunnie)) stole my " MY NAME IS MINHO" shirt and made me wear my "We Converse Maknae"  shirt intead :/)

OH I forgot, the sign for the concert failed and said shinEE instead of SHINee xD

anyways we went back to the venue to line up and the freaking line was so long that it went half way around the building and down the stairs leading to the train station underneath. *died*
we filmed how long it was btw, I just can't be bothered uploading it right now. xD

the line actually moved really quickly but unfortunately Nina ((Sunnie)) and I had shit seats, but Misti and Tory had fucking amazing ones.
BUT WHO CARES ? I SAW THEM ANYWAYS SORT OF.

Nina wouldn't take the video camera so I got to see shit all of the concert properly :/
so when I upload the videos and you get annoyed with when I tilt the camera down, IT'S BECAUSE I WANTED TO AT LEAST SEE THEM PROPLERLY AND ENJOY IT A LITTLE.
I got SO annoyed with Nina. :/ meh.

the first guy was cuter than I thought he would be, and I had never heard of him before but now I ♥ him xD he did sexy dances and showed off some abs and stuff, and he even came into the crowd... AUSTRALIA = FANS OF SAFETY. no one made grabby hands at him, they all just videod him and stuff xD how respectful~ :)

SHINee were second, and Jonghyun wasn't there because he's a goose and hurt himself so he couldn't perform... but that's okay because TAEMIN FUCKING DID ALL OF JONGHYUN'S PARTS AND KICKED ASS WITH HIS SEXY AND CUTE AND AMAZING VOICE. HE EVEN DID THAT LONG NOTE THING IN LUCIFER AND HOLY SHET I WANTED TO BANG HIM RIGHT THERE AND THEN. xD
seriously, they were perfect. xD

anyways, they did this mini interview between songs, everyone sat down but I decided to stand up and wave at them... their reactions were like this:

Jinki: stares and nods awkwardly
Minho: laughs a little and mouths "haha cute"
Taemin: was off in his own world
Key: does a little gay-cute rocking side-to-side thing xD

TAEMIN. YOU SUCK.

jokes, I love you. :)

owethiorhtoire what I'm trying to say is, SHINee kicks ass and they are amazing and I saw them live AND THEY ARE FUCKING REAL. THEY ARE REAL.
and really skinny *pouts*

I still can't believe I saw them live... it seems too good to be true. but it is true and oeithoirthroeihtiourtu yay♥

IMA END THIS POST BEFORE IT GETS REALLY EFFING LONG.

CATCHADOODLE.
Current Location:
the garage
Current Mood:
restless restless
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